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War Path

09 Feb 2026

Hierarchy Of Ambition

I don't know what the fuck has been happening to me lately. Every thing is starting to creep and creep on my nerves, the constant paralysis of converging towards mediocrity, the obsession to be better:

  1. It was not enough to just be a participant, I wanted to be respected as a competitor.
  2. It was not enough to just be a respected competitor, I wanted to win.
  3. It was not enough to just win, I wanted my delta to crush the morale of my rivals.
  4. It was not enough to just crush the morale of my rivals, I wanted to enjoy in their suffering and dominate.

The level of intensity that drives what I've been able to accomplish and how I live my life is in part why I am so opinionated on my war path.

I don't have any other interests than to live the rest of my life competing for spoils that are unquantifiable and never succumb to the reversion to mediocrity.

Disguises

To live for the chase and to hunt after every cycle of performance in both myself and in my life's work drives so much of who I am. In this endeavor it is perhaps the most humbling thing to realize I am largely alone in this effort.

I have a great group of people around me equally on their warpath but the fight itself is one of deep internal turmoil and solitude. Rowing a boat against crashing waves in the open ocean storm towards an island out of sight.

Survival disguised as progress.

Progress disguised as survival.

I can't stop laughing.